Seek God

I have avoided the emotions of senior year by intentionally not thinking that it will “be the last.” This last week I have decided where I will be going to college, however I am still unsure what I will be studying. It seems like I make progress, and then take ten steps back. I then start thinking about all of the new people I will meet and bills I will have to pay. I wonder if the classes will be harder than I can handle, and my mind begins to wander past college too.

Two weeks ago my mind was so stuck on the future that I was missing things happening right in front me in the present. God reminded me to trust Him with my present, and that would help me to have the faith that He would take care of things in my future.

With that being said, I realized that there was a dream in my heart that God has purposed for this very moment. I have told people about this dream for years without taking any action to actually do it. I don’t know if you’ve ever had a week like this, but it seems like everyone heard the conversation you had with God because He is now speaking through people to get to you. This week I have been told to take a leap of faith, and just begin. The hardest part about starting, is starting. It is the initial push to get the ball rolling. I was scrolling through past blogs and journals I’ve written and I found this next paragraph from two years ago that spoke to my heart:

Whenever God brings us into a season where we are growing and He is breaking things off and putting new things on. It is a test of faith. Sometimes it is hard to see what God is doing when we are in the middle of it, and the only thing we feel like we can do is ask “why?” Sometimes we feel helpless because we see friendships breaking apart and people leaving and hospital reports going south. God is just saying, “Have faith. Have faith that I know what is best for you. It is probably for the better that you are not friends with those people anymore. They may have been good friends for a season, but I’m calling you out of that season. You might look back on it 10 years from now and say “thank you God because that would’ve been a train wreck. Thank you for breaking off those friendships and relationships because they were not leading me closer to You.” Sometimes God adds things on and we feel overwhelmed and confused because God gives us something and we have no idea what to do with it. God only gives us what He knows we can handle, but a lot of the stressful and overwhelming pressures are put on us by ourselves. All you need is the faith of a mustard seed and God will do the rest. Be clay and putty in His hand and let Him form you and mold your heart to resemble His. Take a leap of faith and believe that God is going to be there to catch you or to rescue you.

It is all about having faith in the unseen. I can’t help but think of the life of David. He trusted God through the process and his life was a testament to having faith in God, especially when it was difficult. In 1 Samuel when Saul was hunting David, David was constantly seeking God’s counsel to see if he should stay put or if it was time to move. Shouldn’t we be doing the same? This week I challenge you to seek God in the smallest things, and wait to see how He shows up in the big! Seek God in the uncertainty of new seasons.