Not Broken Yet

The last year for me has been really tough. Mentally, I’ve been distant. Emotionally, I’ve been tossed every direction with seemingly no sturdy foundation. Spiritually, I've been slowly recovering. The worst part is, I let all of this break me. I went to a deep, dark place that only God could get me out of. That is, if I would let Him. I became so broken that it almost became normal. I let my situations define me. The truth is, no matter how put together I could look, or whatever fake smile I slapped onto my face, I was still struggling. The expression “fake it until you make it” is never true. Faking a smile or telling people you’re okay is never the answer. My heart was slowly breaking, but in the outside, I was a ray of sunshine. What I had to realize was that I didn’t have to hold myself together. Some things will break your heart and fix your vision. Brokenness can be a blessing and a curse. For some, brokenness is a reason to demand pity; for others, it’s motivation to stay true to themselves. When we are broken before God, He can put us back together. But when we are broken alone, we stay in a ruined, damaged state. You don’t have to stay broken. You don’t have to stay hurting. God wants to fix you. God wants to embrace you. Let him put you back together.