Gratefully Broken

Gratefully Broken. Two very different ideas that put together have made a resounding impact on my life. In 2020, God dealt with my heart in surrender. I was supposed to trust Him even when I couldn’t see the next step in front of me or even my feet below me.

“Walk by faith, not by sight.” 2 Corinthians 5:7

2021 I have been given a new word this year: REFUGE. This year God is already teaching me to find my safe place in Him. He is where I will run to find my security, strength, peace, love, and so much more. He is my comfort and my place of refuge from the chaos ensuing in the outside world and in myself.

“You are my refuge and my shield; I put my hope in Your Word.” Psalm 119:114

Honestly, I think as Christians we can get it really wrong sometimes. That’s okay, we are all humans. However, many times I think that onlookers or even ourselves, though we may not be willing to admit it, think that to be a Christian you have to lead a perfect life with no bad days. Can we acknowledge how unrealistic this is? I will be the first to tell you that I experience bad days, but I will also be the first to tell you that Jesus has never left my side. About a year ago, I was at a point where I was so broken that I didn’t know how much harder things could get. Heartbreak after heartbreak after heartbreak. Even though that time was extremely difficult, I don’t regret any bit of it. Not because I miss the pain, but because that is when I got to know Jesus. Not know He was, but get to know His heart. He soon became my best friend, the love of my life, and I learned how precious myself and everyone of His Father’s creations are to Him. Therefore, I know that no matter what comes my way I will praise God. We are broken people that need a Savior - please get to know Him. Get to know Him on a deeper level than semi-listening your way through sermons and worship on Sunday mornings and occasionally Wednesday nights. Get to know His heart as the One who created you and has pursued you every moment since. I am gratefully broken.